past n now?

lord.
i know in my heart somewhere there is so much to live for ..
i remember those days where i awoke with bursting energy
looking forward to what u have prepared in store for me
those days whereby ur love was overwhelming in me
i had no where to do so but to give ur love away
to people ard me
i missed those days lord
when u were so significant in my life
whereby everyday, everything revolved ard u

i missed it so badly lord
i duno how to get back to that path
lord will u guide me?

nothing changed much from last year to this year or so i thought

last year
new job
new colleagues
new jobscope
1st year at mdis- less stress
newness
some old close frends
church cg
sales target hit---good sales
life was so enjoyable despite e long working hrs

this year
in job for 1.5 years
colleagues come n go , in n out
high turnover
loops in e job
no more newness
year 2 mdis- more stress .exams
old close frends disappointments
same church cg
sales target hard to hit-low sales
everyday e minute passes by it seems so slow

is it e people that caused me to change my view towards e world?
i used to trust people so much, meeting new people etc
my heart burst with so much energy everyday

i never listened to pple who said tt i m gettin older.

i know with HIM despite my age 50 or 60 yrs old..
i will still have tt strength everyday to awake like its a brand new days all over again.